Hanging on to Victor, I did not let him go until we were inside.
I should have either dismissed him outside or held on to him longer.
As it was, letting go Victor when the bar was within reach, I let
go a second too early, so that Leroy Ledbetter, turning toward me
in the same second, did not see me let go but saw Victor just beside
me and so registered a violation. Not even that: a borderline
violation because Victor was not even at the bar but still a step
away. What with his white attendant's clothes and if he had been
a step closer to me, it would have been clear that he was attending
me in some capacity or other. A step or two in the other direction
and he' have been past the end of the bar and in the loading traffic
where Negroes often pass carrying sacks of oysters, Cokes, and
such. As it was, he seemed to be standing, if not at the bar, then
one step too close and Leroy said as his eyes went past him, said
not even quite to Victor, "The window's there," nodding toward the
service window opening into the alley; even then giving Victor the
benefit of the doubt and not even allowing the possibility that
Victor was coming to the bar for a drink, but the possibility only
that he had come to buy his flat pint of muscatel and for some
reason had not known or had forgotten about the service window.
In the same second that he speaks, Leroy knows better, for in that
second Victor steps back and turns toward me and I can see that
Leroy sees that Victor is with me, sees it even before I can say,
too late, "thank you, Victor, for helping me up the hill," and
signifies his error by a pass of his rag across the bar, a ritual
glance past Victor at the storm cloud above the saloon door, a
swinging back of his eyes past Victor and a saying in Victor's
direction, "Looks like we going to get it yet," and almost to Victor
but no quite because it had not been quite a violation so did not
quite warrant a correction therof. Victor nods, not quite
acknowledging because total acknowledgment is not called for,
withholding perhaps 20 percent acknowledgment (2 percent much?).
He leaves by the side door.
-- Walker Percy. Love in the Ruins (1971) p.150-151
The taste in my mouth was like brass.
Where did the terror come from? Not from the violence; violence gives release
from terror. Not from Leroy's wrongness, for if he were altogether wrong, an
evil man, the matter would be simple and no cause for terror. No, it came from
Leroy's goodness, that he is a decent, sweet-natured man who would help you if
you needed help, go out of his way and bind up a stranger's wounds. No, the
terror comes from the goodness and what lies beneath, some fault in the soul's
terrain so deep that all is well on top, evil grins like good. but something
shears and tears deep down and the very ground stirs beneath one's feet.
-- Walker Percy. Love in the Ruins (1971) p.152
When I open my eyes, I am conscious first of breathing. Something
in my diaphragm lets go. I realize I've been breathing at the
top of my lungs for forty-five years. Now my diaphragm moves like
a piston into my viscera, pulling great drafts of air into the base
of my lungs.
-- Walker Percy. Love in the Ruins (1971) p.212
Students are, if the truth be known, a bad lot. En masse they're
as fickle as a mob, manipulable by any professor who'll stoop to
it. They have, moreover, an infinite capacity for repeating dull
truths and old lies with all the insistence of self-discovery.
Nothing is drearier than the ideology of students, left or right.
-- Walker Percy. Love in the Ruins (1971) p.219
The old Republican Party has become the Knot-head Party, so named
during the last Republican convention in Montgomery when a change of
name was proposed, the first suggestion being the Christian
Conservative Constitutional Party, and campaign buttons were even
printed with the letters CCCP before an Eastern-liberal commentator
noted the similarity to the initials printed on the backs of the
Soviet cosmonauts and called it the most knotheaded political bungle
of the century -- which the conservatives, in the best tradition,
turned to their own advantage, printing a million more buttons reading
"Knotheads for America" and banners proclaiming "No Man Can Be Too
Knotheaded in the Service of His Country."
-- Walker Percy, Love in the Ruins (novel, 1971)
"Don't tell me the U.S.A. went down the drain because of Leftism,
Knotheadism, apostasy, pornography, polarization, etcetera etcetera.
All these things may have happened, but what finally tore it was that
things stopped working and nobody wanted to be a repairman."
-- Walker Percy, Love in the Ruins (novel, 1971)